Public Journal Entry : Last music stream

So this is being posted as of the day of my "last" music stream. I have had a plan to go on hiatus for a couple months now, at least partially. 

TL;DR I am abstaining from signing up for any music event/raid train for the forseen future.

Why? Mental health. Behold, my shame:

This was caused by and is currently causing my depression, at least partially (in the state of this world, you can probably guess the other parts, but alas this is something I can control). I kept putting it off because I would always tell myself "oh, you will take it apart and it won't be ready to play another set then cause you would put off putting it back together". Self-replicating deprecating nonsense. So I gave myself a cutoff. Today's Hive Mind Music is the end of this chapter. 

I am not going to rush this. 

I am not ending all of my streaming, I plan on keeping the daily/double-daily streams going. I love hanging out, chatting, gaming with all of my followers and subscibers. Y'all are the reason I haven't just moved on already. I love it here, but I want to feel better. I want these streams to be productive. 

I need a clean slate.

So, that's the story. The "studio" is going to get some pretty big upgrades. I won't ever fully quit music. It was one of my great escapes for a time, but now it feels like a burden. That needs to change, and I feel this is the change.

Thank you for reading this, thank you for being there. Till next time, tootles.

~doughy